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| SOoo I decided to use xanga again.. To post my poetry and other things.. So enjoy. I know i do! 
Consistency Shmistency
Consistency is a word I’ve heard a lot lately.
& It makes me want to gag
Piercing to my ears and like a BRICK
Dropped on you little toe.
Makes me nauseous
Like I’ve been on a swing set for 12 hours
With no snack
& The thing is, I can’t figure out what it means
It seems all relative and stuff
Like when Whitman is talking about the squirrels
You think, “this is important” & “I should pay attention”
But all you really hear is “blah blah the government sucks &
I’d like to live in the woods and this guy didn’t pay taxes”
That’s what consistency sounds like to me.
So, I try to avoid it, but it keeps following me
Like the night stalker and I fear one of these days
It’ll slash my tendon, in my ankle
And I’ll never be a nurse, but I can try to be consistent
I have no grasp on this word, nor do I want it
But if I wear a skirt and heels perhaps, I will look the part
& People will open doors for me & I will look normal & serious & consistent
But I will laugh to myself
Because I am a rebel
And one day,
I will borrow some brass knuckles
& Punch consistency in the face
& People will be good & trust their instincts
Like I do
&I will never have to hear that UGLY word again
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I was hit by a train
She talks to a phantom
And its all the same
Once, I was by the sea
Last where my feet up
That’s where I’d rater be
But obligation liked to play with chance
And this time teamed up with circumstance
The two combined to form
Numb and weakness
The fear of something urgent
A choice between hibernation
Or combustion
Baby girl
Searching for a home that does not exist
A warrior without a battle
An uphill climb
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| People are grey.. And not exactly perfect and not inherently evil.. We are all grey.. And i'm all like whatever. No one has room to judge. But I love, or at least try very hard. We're all in this together. Everyone has SOMETHING that they are carrying. "Time is not given time is not taken, it just sifts through a sieve." | | |
| It is summer. I work at Ace Hardware, again. Only this time, I am being give more responsibility. Bank runs, cash drawers, ect. I will be back at BSU in August, where i am nominated for homecoming queen , and have a lovely resident assistant job in Elliott hall. My dad is happy, and my mom seems to be doing well, i love them both very much. My brother has been fairly rebellious this year, we've had our ups and downs. I think college will humble him a ton. He's looking at Purdue. Men are complicated. All i know is i am no longer dating Jay, and have found someone who will fight for me. Which is sad and wonderful all in one. I still love teaching, but unfortunately am becoming lazy. Lazy to the extent that i would rather watch a movie then read a great novel and lazy to the extent that i'd rather starve then make some food. Is that sad? I am a mess, but i am a happy mess. Very satisfied with life. God's grace is endless, He has convicted me, rocked me, and moved me this year. He has also shown me His great love more then ever before!
I don't know what i expect anyone to get out of this. But its my life as of now, and it seemed the time to share it.
xoxoCHEERSxoxo | | |
| Everything is going my way and i am still not satisfied.....
I WANT SUMMER... i am sick, of being sick.
I do have a GREAT boyfriend, an AMAZING school and an even COOLer major. I have GOOD friends ... even if i don't get to see them all the time... i LOVE my family..... I am eligible for a STELLAR job... BUT
I want the sun.
I think too much...
<3 you all...
Let me know if any of u have something thrilling..........
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| "Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun."
Breaking Benjamin - Rain Lyrics
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